Lily (Evans) Potter

*locked from her children*

1. Words.
2. Lack of words.
3. Distance.
4. Avoidance.
5. Tears.
6. Lies.
7. Finding someone else.
8. Becoming someone else.
9. Breaking promises.
10. Secrets.

Part of her backstory but I guess if you change the amount of years mentioned it can be changed to present grownhp6words. :X Unofficial response for TM's "Everything passes. Nobody gets anything for keeps. And that's how we've got to live."



She had believed in Always, once.

It was a lifetime ago, it seemed. At nine years old it had been easy to believe that the person that truly understood her would always be there. That he would always love her.

Always.

She had believed it. Wholeheartedly, unquestionably. It didn't matter what others said. It didn't matter what others thought, either, because to Lily he wasn't just anyone. He was Severus. Her Sev. Just how she was his Lily, he was her Sev, and that was just the way things were supposed to be.

Always.

Always was never long enough. It's amazing what time could do to a person, and to what they had.

It's late, and she's cold as she stands there in the Astronomy tower and staring out at the grounds that are covered in darkness, but her mind is elsewhere. It's not in the trees that surround the school, or how the stars shine brightly above her. Instead it is back in time, to those days in the park. When Always meant Forever, and the boy with black hair - that boy that Tuney thought was so weird - was her best friend. The one that knew her. The one that understood her. The one that would always be there.

Always.

Always is never long enough.

( 2 memes )

1. Lily will never be ashamed of the family she came from.

2. She still can't truly get over the gap that grew between herself and her sister.

3. A part of her will always be in denial that her sister could have been so cruel to her son. She somehow always figured Petunia would take him in as her own.

4. She has truly loved all three of her husbands.

5. And, yes, she still loves James. Just not in that way.

( 6-20 )

What do you see as the biggest problem you and your significant other are facing in your relationship?

(grownhp6words timeline; locked from all her children)

I keep hearing "I told you so."

No one has said it. I'm not sure who knows everything that has been happening between Severus and myself, but I keep hearing it anyway. He had already hurt me once, so he would hurt me again. I keep hearing how I should have known that, and I should have seen it coming. I was supposed to know better.

Maybe it's me trying to prepare myself for when things calm down and the "I told you so"s will be coming in. Or maybe they'll never come, but I still hear them whenever I think about this mess we're in. I was in love with a man who would never hurt me. I still am in love with him, but my love for James isn't the same as the one I have for Severus. Still, James would never hurt me. I know he wouldn't. And Sev...

It took us so many years to get it right. We have children together. I wouldn't trade that for anything, and I don't regret raising them together. I just feel like a fool, for believing that Always means...always.

I should have known better. I'm old enough - figuratively speaking, anyway - to know better. Yet, here we are.

So, problems? Right now I don't even know where to start figuring this out.